Identity Crisis #64.3-b
I am currently suffering another identity crisis. Probably because I'm unemployed. Not having a job makes me feel that I don't have an identity. Why is that? Does my job define me? If I don't have a job, then I am a wife and mother. With a job I am something else. This is better?
In our society, we are defined by what we "do." "What do you do for a living?" Or, even better, "What does your husband do?" Apparently, we place an awful lot of importance on how we get our money. So, what does it say when I am not making any? What does that do to my identity?
"What do you do?" Right now, nothing! Or, even better for the feeling of fulfilment..."I"m a stay at home mom." Ah, yes. the wonderment of society. The raiser of children, cooker of dinners, cleaner of houses. Domestica Majoricus. That's me. What do I add to society? Nothing. What do I bring to the home? Nothing. Yes, I raise my children Yes, that's very important. But, I'm telling you, the youngest made many more strides in pre-school than staying home with mommy, the domestic queen.
So, I'm having an identity crisis. Apparently, I'm going to have to learn yet another new skill to get a job. So, in the meantime, I have lots and lots of time to think. That's very dangerous. I tend to think in a spiral tilted slightly at a downward angle when given that much free time.